Ramblings…#1 because there are probably many to come.

When I started this journey I had no Idea where it would take me or how quickly my thinking would escalate and dart all over the place. 

There were so many aspects of change that I felt needed to undergo that I really didn’t know what to expect and nor where it would head.  I think that is what I am loving about the journey. 

I actually don’t know what is ahead of me.  All I know is that I am chasing some version of freedom, yet to be determined or evolving and that each day I want to be a better version of myself.

At this stage I feel as though I am mostly achieving this with slips ups along the way.  I think the difference is I am not aiming for perfection I am aiming for progress and I am really not concerned about the tiny blips I am just learning from them and continuing to plough forwards.

I think the greatest aspect of freedom I have found so far is the concept of being at peace with myself.  Not overthinking, beating myself up, feeling as though I am never good enough. 

Yes I still walked into a knee high washing pile in the laundry this morning and I had kids that couldn’t find this and that…probably because they were yet to be washed but it’s only washing.  And truth be said there are 3 other people in our house capable of doing it.

In the past I would feel like a failure because I wasn’t running the house the way I felt it should be run but if I am honest they were the expectations I put on myself. So I am finding this new way of kinder thinking towards myself to be much better for my mental health and in many ways very freeing.